If I had the opportunity to write Jake A letter I think it would o something like this:(I'v never been one for formal letter writing protocol)
I don't know what happened to make you think that all of your life had come down to this decision to take your life, but just so you know the gap you left in humanity was of quite a large magnitude to all of us, probably more then anyone realized. I never thought the half-hearted affections of someone was worth anyone's life, when you had a circle of friends who valued you and knew you could do much better for yourself. It's like you had A hand full of diamonds but all you wanted where those cheap little pieces of colored glass they put in the bottom of fish bowels or flower vases. The attention of another person will never be worth the existence of another Jake. I wish I could have told you that.
I remember the day I found out I cried for an entire night, I never cried like that for anyone. I wonder what made this so different. I guess it was more out of shock and sadness of the fact I wasn't perceptive enough to pick up on your red flags and I blamed myself for the longest time and still do A extent I guess, I remember writing the night you passed that I would carry you in every fold of my brain and every cell of my body, but this body is only built for one and I can't carry you anymore. I won't carry you anymore, I'll never forget you, but I'm going to let this extra weight go, I still don't understand why, but that's A "why" I wasn't meant to know, but I want you to know that you did change the landscape of my life, you tilled the soil of my soul so new life can be planted and begin to grow. So instead of carrying you I am going to put the memory of you in the garden of my soul like a statue and let the vines of time grow up around you. you'll be there for reflection, but I am not going to carry you anymore Jake. I know ill still think of you constantly but instead of regret ill reflect.
well I ill see ya, I hope your doing well.